hellooooo, I"m back in the chaos of the world and the quietness of the retreat behind me. What an amazing experience! I love noble silence. Being back around everything is so distracting for meditation now, it was easy in our large group of collective energy and quietness. No matter, I have found my path, the path of Dhamma and will continue to walk it.
The first day was the longest! I thought it
would never end..lol it felt like ten days in one. The third day we sat in complete stillness for two hours, by the second hour I was shaking and crying till we ended an hour later. Physical discomfort made feeling the subtleties of my sub atomic particles challenging, but found equanimity and balance of mind through the pain rather than the subtle which helped later with subtler sensations. wow, how to encapsulate such a profound experience. Everything I ever learnt or read about spirituality and buddhism made complete sense through the direct personal experience. The technique I have learnt to eradicate my own misery has to be practice continually for years, which is fine with me, I get it. This is how I want to spend the rest of my life, healing myself and then sharing with others, nothing is more important to me now. I'm planning on more vipassana retreats and finding monastaries to spend time in to explore this discipline. I love the fact it is nonsectarian and universal, since we all have misery it is applicable to all. I have benefited greatly already from such a brief encounter, now to find peaceful places to practice. I also realized how much my mind tortures me with the way I think, pain and intensity has been my daily bread for soooo long, and peace has evaded me. Now I have found a way with a method that leads me out of my own suffering. May all beings be happy. Love love love! xo
