A big thanks to all that those things, people and places that have pissed me off!! lol It has caused me to turn inward towards the true guru within:) I was reminded of the buddha, he had it all and gave it away then went and search everywhere outside himself and tried it all on and jumped though everyone's hoops, to no avail and when he finally said fuk it! and sat...he found it. I'm at that point!!! so done with it, them and all of it and ready to honor me. I've a new plan for me when I'm done vipassana and its fantastic. and simple. xoxoxoxoox