So close but yet so far!! AGAIN!! The man from the Himalayas turns out to be a Master, and only comes down when he feels the call to help someone. He said perhaps that person is me...Whoa..I will be posting a longer version, but this is it in a nut shell... we chatted and connected, he invited me back to his private place in my complex where he proceeded to ask me a lot of questions to get to k now where i was coming from and told me things about the north that I knew from my studies and why I want to go there! And then He reprimanded me for looking like a dirty hippie tough guy, that my outside doesn't match my inside. You know he's a teacher when they lovingly rebuke you. So I went to my place and change clothes into my best, which impressed him and he said I have to always dress this way. Its so hot though! I wanna be naked! lol. Gah, so here I sit sweating and typing;) He paid for the taxi and all the items we needed for puja at the Shiva Temple(which also tells me he's serious and not working me..) he told me I need to hang out at this temple because the energy at the burning ghat is burning up my positive energy, and the saints, sages and sadhus have been prayin here for a long time. And the people in the hood i"m staying in are just out for money and are very negative, so I wasn't to far off when I freaked out a week ago. So we get to the temple and tells me to surrender and that he's going to bring Kailash to me..and he initiates me and gives me a new name, which I didn't catch, oops:( The initiate was intense and very intimate, like the last one. Its crazy how intimate they are...holy. we finish and come out and he asks me how the experience was.. I told him I didn't feel anything really:( the whole process was to open my third eye! and I couldn't surrender! He basically told me I was an arrogant lil so and so:( in a loving way mind you. we leave and hail a taxi and he drops me off. I was depressed I went home and starting crying, of course thats how I deal . I felt rejected not by him but by God, it has been a long time since I felt like suicide, but the feeling didn't last, I worked through the rejection and remembered his words..' I obviously wasn't ready yet!' the operative word "yet"! so I just got mad and decided I would spend all my time at the temple in prayer, which is where I've been all day. My body is hurting! I have to spend most of my time alone and in pray reciting my mantra..I've been initiated 3 times here now, they keep seeing my light and this time it was a master from the north! SO kewl! if I can manifest one, two is for sure! I just have to work harder..it doesn't help that i just came from burning man and my only mantra was ..I'll have another beer! lol. I'm getting closer, but i've had things like this happen to me before, very spiritual but I can't let go and surrender:( i"m only surrendering to myself, but can't seem to do it. He also said I passed the burning ghat test! I also know that I'm always being tested! So on to the next part of my path forward and inward:) When I was taking breaks from meditation (he told me I had to write about the experience) now have to type it. when its done I will send it out. But I don't know if I will see him again, I'm not sure if he's mad or disappointed or couldn't be bothered now, I can't reach him and ya. Moving on. love from the edge! xoxoxooox Like · · Promote