Sunday, October 14, 2012


So it would seem I've pissed off the Baba at the burning Ghat, the one who was trying to guilt some monies out of me:( I ran into the Sannyasin that sits with him and told him what happened. Now the Baba will not even look at me when I say hi, as well it seems he has told some of his followers. I've been sitting down below the ghat for a week or so now without incident, till now. The women have started putting their laundry on the pipe now, when I saw this I went further down the dirt road and tip toed through the brush and swamp and hopped on the pipe to where I sit. I got comfortable and then I could hear the women up behind me on the wall all talking loudly and angry, so I turned to look and they were all looking at me with scowls:( Really!? did they think I walked over their laundry?? Were they doing that to stop me? Whatever they thought they seemed mad at me. Whatever, I sat and started my meditation. Only to have 5 big Sikhs come down to the road in front of me from the Baba's temple, 4 older and one younger guy in his 30's and quite muscular which is surprising for these little indian boys I usually see. I gave a little nod and a smile, and they only scowled at me and the muscle boy with his arms crossed trying to intimidate me... by the energy I felt I thought he was going come over and smack me out. Funny, I had just prayed for a circle of protection moments before they arrived. They took a pic and then left. WTF?? The adrenalin was pumping and my flight of fight response was fully engaged. How did they know I was there? you really have to be on a mission to find me there. I've noticed the young guys that usually pass by who ignore me, now scowl at me. Baba is pissed obviously. I sat there and the young boys were up behind me and banging things and then I heard a bottle smash behind me. I sat for a bit till they left, then I went as well. I called my only friend here, she's been here for 10 years and had a talk with her. Basically its all 1st chakra issues,ie: safety, security,nourishment( I'm focusing on proper diet as well) and the right to be here. I've made sure all my important documents are somewhere safe and went back down there and continue my meditation. I can't let him intimidate me like that, I have to sit my ground and watch what comes up. All my energy wants to rush to my head and my knees want to come up, so I have to keep breathing and grounding my moolhadara base chakra which keeps wanting to tighten. Mantra chanting to keep my mind still and calm, as fearful images want to come in. So much crazy work. So again today I will go sit. My friend is aware of where I am if there is any incident.

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